Wednesday, July 8, 2009

New path in life

My son thinks he might like boys instead of girls. I am trying to be supportive but not sure where to go from here. I know he will have a harder life because of it, but I also know he will make wise choices for himself. I am not sure how to go from here. I don't want to screw it up. This is his opportunity to talk to me and I didn't shy away. Glad this is separate from fb. I love him and even though I have been raised to believe it is wrong and those people will go to hell... I will not allow that part of life to hurt him. I know his father will use this as an excuse to banish him from his life. I welcome that, since he is a turd on good days. So Terri, help me here and give me some insight on what to do and say. He is 14 and starting high school with all new kids.

Monday, July 6, 2009

we just keep on pushing

we never give up we push and push and type and share and believe that we are strong and we never give up we push and push till we push no more..

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Tuesday, June 30, 2009

God

Monday, June 29, 2009

The evil that lies within.....

I have a very evil side. I have to keep it under wraps and sometimes I fail. Last night Will was talking to df's ex-g/f's daughter on yahoo im. He mentioned about seeing df and she mentioned about df moving out. Will told her about the new g/f. Shit went flying everywhere. I was secretly happy that he had told her. Even more I hope the ex-g/f blows a gasket at df. I didn't encourage but did have him ask some important questions like whether they had a joint account. I told him to tell her to take the money out or he would. He was told to leave because he wasn't paying the bills he was supposed to be paying but said he did. DUH! Like I have never experienced that before. Seems she asked him to leave right before he came up here. She didn't know he moved into the new g/f's house. I told the kids he won't leave the confines of one without somewhere else to land. I have come to scrutinize every action he took with me and realize I was the help in destroying someone else's dream for their future with him. Lucky me!

He is angry that I won't let the kids go. Am sure my letter will light the roman candles. Don't really care. My kids aren't up for sale. But I will pass along the word that he is able to go to Worlds of Fun and 6 Flags but can't afford to pay more than $500 a month. I hate the courts. At least I know they will be safe and I pray he takes me to court so I can show them how fitting his name truly is.

Sunday, June 28, 2009

insiide

Saturday, June 27, 2009

moon

moon yet to set bellow.. lurched on the horizon.. night. eyes cut the dark, with balled up fists skeletal and wrapped in pearls and sin


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dark

Dark emblems stain the stripped away facade and another rain drop sails southward further away v.